2013 So Far

Looooong time no talk! I know, I know! I can't even begin to explain where the hell I've been, because seriously... I have no excuse! So can I just pull the crappy boyfriend move and say "lets just act like this never happened ?!?!" "Can I puhhhhleaseee have another chance?!?!" You guys, I know I'm pathetic, give me a break!

 Anyway,  how's everyone first week of 2013 been? I hope yours has been more eventful than mine... not that I'm complaining, because I never do that ;) This has been my first week as the wife of a really strapping young man studying his tush off for the Bar! No ladies, not the bar we hit up for free vodka waters and the occasional 25 cent wings (don't even act like you don't do that!), but the BAR, the test you take to become a liar, whoopsy, did I say liar? I meant lawyer ;) So, it's kinda a big deal... which basically means, its my time to shine...it's my time to play the role of the Emmy nominee best supporting wife that we all know I can be! Now, now, don't be jealous... the roll really is much less extravagant than I'm sure you're envisioning... it's basically just laundry this, laundry that, wash a dish, pat on the back and so on and so forth! So far, I am off to a rocky start, but, hey, I got time! For those of you that know me, you may also know that I am not the most selfless and sweet person... that is actually Pat, so this whole stepford wife roll just doesn't come so easy for me! So, after a week of recovering from the holidays and doing basically nothing, then feeling guilty about doing nothing, then doing it again the next day, I've decided to make this next week different... not too much different though, let be real here! I'm trying to fill my time with girl dates and working out... and by working out I mean leaving the elliptical in the kitchen and then every time I eat spoonfuls of cookie butter I can stare at it and feel guilty... it's really healthy, you guys should try it! ;) 

Well... that is quite enough about me. If nothing else, I hope this post is like an episode of Teen Mom for you  :) You can read it and feel better about your lives after! Hey, You're welcome! 

 Is it just me or does anyone else never use their watch for the time... I'm 99% sure its not even set correctly! 

 

Sweater: thrifted //Scarf: Target(sold out online I here)// Shirt: Pats // Wedge Bootie: Forever21

xoxo,

Kayla 

Trailer Park Princess

Today was just one of those days where you wake up and are like "Today I am going to tell the world I live in a trailer park." Have you guys ever had one of those?!?! This is my first too! I feel like I should go on and on about how guilty I feel about abandoning you these past few months... and don't get me wrong, the guilt ... it's overwhelming! BUT that will just have to be another post, where I beg for your forgiveness because, when you wake up and are compelled to write about your move to a trailer park, you just don't mess around. 

So... long story shorter - me and the hubs bought our first home, does that not sound like the sweetest thing on paper?!?! The detail we tend to leave out... that it's in a trailer park... If someone had told me in high school that I would be 23, married and living in a trailer park with a voluptuous papipom I would have laughed in their face. If they had told me I would be 23, married and living in a trailer park  with a voluptuous papipom AND loving it -- I would have SPIT in their face! Hell, if they had told me that LAST MONTH, I would have spit in their face! There are just some things in life that you just don't see coming... and definitely don't see yourself liking... my evolution to badass was one of them, but I am welcoming it with open arms! My move to the trailer park reminds me of when Charlize Theron was preparing for her role in Monster {which I am totally renting later today BTW} that girl completely   E M B R A C E D that role... gaining weight, striving to look haggard as all get out, Charlize was torn up from the floor up all to OWN that role! That is exactly how I feel about my transition to the trailer park, I feel haggard {I've been wearing daisy dukes and no make-up for daysss now} and feisty {I've resisted slapping Pat like 6 times now...}, like a BAMF -- I am E M B R A C I N G my role as Trailer Park Princess. 

The hardest pill to swallow is how white trash I already was... OR how white trash we ALL really are... that was the real mind f*ck! I mean way to get the short end of the stereotype stick just for living amongst a few homes with wheels...Geez!!! Some things that I tend to do { watch Day's Of Our Lives, scream at my dog, go bra- less, strongly consider getting a mini pig as next pet } to name just a few, and some things that people living in apartments tend to do {where their "yoga pants" or "vickis sweats" long past their last yoga sesh, read romance novels cough*** 50 Shade Of Gray*** cough, proudly wear their hair in a top knot, poop at the gym bathroom, host quinceaneras at the community pool, yell at roommates loud enough for entire complex to hear, and eat taco bell } just to name a few, are considered full throttle trailer trash when done inside a trailer park, but are acceptable and normal in an apartment complex...NOT FAIR! Some of these things that I practiced freely when living in an apartment complex I have to think twice about now in the trailer park... OR not... I've decided to  completely own my role as TPP {trailer park princess} and flip it all the bird! I mean is that not the beauty of living in a Trailer park!?!? You don't have to class it up because no one is on a high horse round' these parts!

 I've felt torn about writing this entry for a while, unfortunately I do have a lot of "friends" that are on high horses and I'm sure are LOVING this opportunity to see this as a low moment for me, but they couldn't be more wrong, this is a high moment for me and I actually love living here. I mean...yes, no neighborhood is perfect, my neighbor does cuss at her two cats and turtle and we may have been interrupted during a nightly prayer by a trailer fight BUT we've had our share of issues living everywhere... So, no, it's not perfect but yes , we do love it! It's not forever, but it's a place to start for us!! 

Itty Bitty Vacation

 Well, believe it or not my computer charger is STILL not here... talk about snail mail for heaven sakes! If that thing doesn't come within this week, I'm gonna have to choke a B... I'll just leave it at that.

On a more blissful note, we took a mini vacation this past weekend! We left Thursday night, drove to the GORGEOUS town of Mendota... somewhere between the lovely Bakersfield and the charming Los Banos... who in their right mind names a town LOS BANOS?!?!?! I mean, REALLY, you couldn't think of anything better? I feel bad for the people who live there and whats worse is with that name I would expect some divine bathrooms, with like a toilet of gold or something equally as wowing but OH NO... you do not even want me to whisper a detail about the banos in Los Banos... but I have to, because you're my blog, and oh holy hannah i have got to tell someone! Two words -- flies.heat. use your imagination.... or even better, DON'T!The next morning we woke up and finished our drive and arrived in Tahoe!

Tahoe is one of my favorite places in summer. I just keep falling more and more in love with it. My grandparents have a Cabin on the lake there where I spent so many childhood summers and winters, I always loved Tahoe but now, I really appreciate it. It's like a retro wonderland, like if the Hampton's could meet Camp Wynamucka and date for a while, make out under the canoes then get married and make a baby... that baby would be TAHOE!

The trip was tiny.. pint size.... itsy bitsy, we came for a wedding that was absolutely beautiful, I will share it with you later but it was jam packed with so much greatness!! I took some killer shots on my camera but of course we have to wait for that damn charger... so until then Tohoegrams for you lovies!!!

The Ace Hotel

Boy oh boy do I miss you guys! A series of huge life events (graduating college, wedding anniversary, getting a job!!!)mixed with some technical difficulties (computer charger dropped dead on me!) have left me high and dry in bloggersville BUT - they have also taught me a valuable lesson in blogging...

 Typically, because of my procrastinating ways I am behind a few days...weeks, in this case MONTHS on my blog posts... I know, I know!! But, in my defense this is usually because I want to make sure my posts are chronological, and I won't allow myself to post about the most recent things until my previous things are documented! But (yes, there are lots of tushies in this post :)) since I have fallen so behind and my computer charger croaked on me I am tossing that rule out the window! At least for now because I miss you guys! I miss blogging and I just can't wait to access my computer for photos so I am just going for it! Yeehaw!! Or should I say YOLO right folks... or i guess that is my pathetic use of YOLO ;) (for those of you unfamiliar with the acronym it means you only live once)  So please forgive the crummy iPhone pics and my short and sweet iPad (I know, grad gift...spoiled right!!) posst until I am back and fully functioning.

 Anyway the valuable lesson was -- just Ef it! Ef the rules, and especially Ef the rules if they're keeping me from blogging, YOLO ;) !! So from now on I am making a goal for myself to be more up to date and to not let my OCD chronologicalness be a wet blanket!! So here's a little somethin somethin for you guys... It's me and the hubs wedding anniversary vaycay to The swanky and oh so fabulously hipster and cool Ace Hotel!! We had such a ball!! We felt like we we time traveled back to the 70's!! The entire place looked like old Hollywood retro, so fabulous!! The people were so chill, the weather was hotter than Mississippi in the summertime (I just made that up because it sounded good!) the cocktails we're fabulous, and the people we're so trendy it gave us an excuse to bring out the big guns!(pink flamingo shorts for Pat and high wasted bikinis and flower crowns for yours truly! YOLO) Then on our last day we found the best coffee shop in all of California - Koffi! OMHeaven on earth this place was to die for! best damn coffee EVER!! If you're ever in Palm Springs go there! If you don't me and Pat will be forced to cut ties with you...sorry!

 And whoops, my B if I look wasted in every single one of the photos... I probably was!

1 Year Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to the sweetest soul I know, my best friend, the love of my life, my husband Patrick O'Rourke!!! You are the most selfless and caring person I know, not a day goes by that you are not sacrificing yourself to bring a smile to someones face and I feel so entirely blessed that I call you mine! You make me so proud daily and your unconditional, consistent love for me reminds me of God's love for us <3 I know it sounds like such cheese but I could not imagine my life without you and I feel so unworthy of your love yet you never cease to show me and make me feel so loved! I admire you so much as a man, husband and friend, you are so wise and caring, you have a gift for serving others and it makes my heart sing! I cannot thank you enough for humoring my weird anxieties and reminding me that worrying will not get me anywhere, as annoying as I know I probably am, you never have complained and you always are right by my side supporting me. I am so grateful we found each other that random night at Papasandbeer Rosarito whoever knew that would be the night I met the most amazing man in the world...my HUSBAND! I love you so much Pat, I cannot wait to share the rest of our lives together.

Love,
your Wife <3

P.S. If this is suppose to be our hardest year... I can't even fathom what an "easy" year is like because I can honestly say this has been THE BEST year of my life!! XOXO

Public Transit Bootay!

I know I deserve a BIG smack on the bum for being so MIA lately! I am so sorry! It's school I tell ya! Damn school! I swear UCSD saved up everything that ever had to be done to graduate and assigned it to me this month!! But, my friends... the count down begins! Only 13 more days of school left then I am a graduated, certified, smarty pants!! Wooo Go me! (that is if I graduate... don't want to jinx myself) Everyone knows the saying "Don't count your chickens before they hatch!" but... I've been counting them... and I tell ya, if they don't all hatch.... things.will.get.ugly.period. 

With that lovely inspirational note, I give you my most awkward moment in a long time. It happen yesterday, I was in the heat, sweating bullets waiting for the shuttle. Yes, me and my public transit bootay have been taking the shuttle to UCSD, apparently me and my senior status, well, we've really humbled ourselves. No, not really, what really happened was Pat had been begging me to take the shuttle forever but I was always afraid I would get on the wrong one, end up in Mexico, become the whistle blower at the club that pours jello shots down tourist throats (I actually think that I might like doing that)... oh I had a list as long as Santas naughty list of reasons why I could not take the shuttle! But then comes Mrs. Cute Floral Jeans that I could not live without... ohhhhhhh but I knew my little frugal Jew of a husband would not let me have them... UNLESS... I cut costs somewhere else to pay for these gems! So... all of the sudden me and Mrs. Cute Floral Jeans were  not quite as terrified to take the shuttle...

So I have been riding the shuttle acting like a pro for about 3 weeks now, it still terrifies me and I can't even tell you how many people have got a lap dance from me, when all the seats in the shuttle are taken and I have to stand and that shuttle rounds a corner....wooooweeeee I should be making tips!

But yesterday, my shuttle experience almost made me cry. The shuttle rolls up and when I am about 2 people back from getting on I realize Mr. Huge Black Scary Man Shuttle Driver (not to be racist, just descriptive) is checking for student ID's. I am carrying a purse the size of Texas and I know there is no way on God's green earth that I can find my wallet in time, let alone my student ID! Sooooo, I just pretended I did notice that he was checking ID's and I tried to shimmy my way past him, but ohhhhh helll nooooo  he was not going to have that! So that's when he yells "Where's yo ID!!!??" and at that point EVERYONE on the shuttle had to stare at me and see who the IDIOT was that tried to shimmy on past him. I said "Oh!" Like i was so silly for forgetting and then awkwardly tried to scavenge through my purse to find it, then I realized this would take a year and I had a line of inpatient sweaty people glaring at me so I said "I'll just get off and take the next one..." then he replied "Next tieee' have it out fo me! Jus'go on!!" So then I said a really sheepish "thanks."  I would have just prefered to take the next one rather than have the whole shuttle stare at me and think the whole ride "what a dumb biatch!" But I was stuck, so I walked mortified to the back of the bus... keeping my eyes to the ground because I did not want to see anyone I knew, that would just make the whole situation 10 times worse! So there I was standing in the back of the bus, sweaty, humiliated and more than ever ready to graduate!!! I could not wait to get off that shuttle and go back to being the annonomous UCSD girl rather than the girl that Effed up the shuttle ride!

I have a history with bad shuttle experiances, when I was in the 1st grade I was so anxious and nervous about getting off at the right bus stop, I started walking to the front of the bus before it stopped and the bus driver yelled at me and it scared me so much I peed my pants! SO at least this time was a little bit better... I didn't pee my pants and that's always a plus  :)

 

What were we wearing?

Me: Skirt and Shirt - Urban Outfitters, Belt and Sweater - Dreamgirls Clothing Boutique

The Hubs: Shorts and Shirt - H&M, Vest - Pendleton

The "To Do" List

You guys!! I swear I still exist! I have been so MIA lately and I appolagize but you can go ahead and curse midterms for that.... I have been cursing them all week! I am SO ready to be done and I am Soooo close I can taste, smell and FEEL the freedom!! But the closer graduation seems to get the LONGER the "To Do" list seems to get! Lovely....;) 

As daunting as my "to do's" seem to be I am trying to remind myself to just flip it the bird sometimes! I mean seriously how much crap can one gal do... I ain't super-woman people! We went to church this weekend and the service was about family but I found a way to connect it to my "to do" list because lately that thing has been weighing HEAVILY {like loaded diaper heavy!} on my mind! Pastor Matt was talking about this guy named Bob... who clearly I need to meet; and how Bob quits something every Thursday. Yup, just flat out up and quits it! I mean EF yeah Bob! And no he doesn't mean, like major huge things like smoking, drinking and the like but just things that have him bogged down, wasting his time, over it! Wow, the thought of that to me was just so freeing, I feel like in our culture there's so much emphasis on following through and finishing; which is definitely not a bad thing and the majority of the time things should be finished and followed through but sometimes I think all of us need to just give these things that are causing us guilt and grief and stress a big old EF YOU!! And ask ourselves "why"?? It means so much to us that we finish it. Who cares if it's finished... does God care? 

Paster Matt also introduced me to a new life motto I've given it an acronym because all good things in life are given an acronym - it's called W.A.B. What About Bob and no I am not talking about my favorite quiter Bob from above, I am talking about the movie people - What About Bob the movie!! If you have not seen this amazing movie GO, NOW put the computer down grab your keys and get it it's awesome! But W.A.B is not only an excellent movie, it's now my way of life. It's called baby steps people...say it with me...BABY STEPS!! It seems too simple, but seriously why do we need to complicate things...? I think sometimes it's really helpful when you have a huge daunting "to do" list to just take it one baby step at a time. It feels easier, and then you get to cross more off, which lets face it, that's everyones favorite part about a "to do" list!! And because this is life and there will always be a "to do" list... {I know, it sucks} if we're always burdened and stressing about our lists can we ever just relax and live! Life is for living and not for listing so sometimes that list of ours.... it needs to go to hell! 

So this week, please join me in WABing and giving our "to do's" a big EF YOU!! GO- live a little! Cut Loose!!